Sunday, 05 July 2009

The wedding...

recently, due to so many of my friends getting married this year, I began to think of my wedding. How I'll never have a dad to walk me down the isle, how my mother and father won't light a candle for me, so my future husband and I can light a unity candle. My parents won't pray for us in front of a group of people, and I won't have a daddy daughter dance, and my maid of honor won't be my best friend. I've just gotten over thinking that there couldn't be a man in the world for me, (yeah, I really believed I would never be found by my future husband), and I've come to realize how all those things that didn't bother me growing up, are effecting me now.

I also know that I'm going to wail the entire night before, and the entire day of the wedding... simply because that's me... not because of sadness but because of joy.

The reception is going to be a party, with dancing, friends and family. Lots of food, plenty of fun, maybe some random dramatic skits or dance performances... lol.

And now to the point::

And I use to think that if I were to think about stuff like this, that it would be bad, and that I wouldn't show God that I'm greatful for being single now. But it is hope that keeps us going. It is hope in Christ that I believe that all things will come out for good, for those who love Him and are called for His purpose. And it is by trusting the LORD with EACH step... no matter how hard it is to restrain myself from rushing, that I will be in His perfect will. I've been thinking alot about this stuff lately and this morning a song played as we closed out, which took my breath away because it was exactly my prayer in musical form:: here are the lyrics..

WAIT FOR YOU

DAVIS, HOLLAND

Copyright: 2002 CALVARY CHAPEL MUSIC 
Year: 2002 
Key: G

       G     D      Em        C
I will wait, I will wait for you
       G     D      Em        C
I will wait, I will wait for you
G                D
When my heart is troubled
Em                    C
And when my bones are aching
       G D          Em       C
I will wait, I will wait for you

                    Em
It's all that I can do
C              G  D/F#
All that I can do
                    Em
It's all that I can do
          C         G         D
Is to wait for you, wait for you

          G    D     Em   C
I hope in you, I hope in you
          G D        Em   C
I hope in you, I hope in you
   G                 D
And when my heart is breaking
Em                     C
Faithful and true are you
       G  D             Em   C
I will hope, I will hope in you